Read This First

We have moved to a different blog: We Choose Harmony

To see why, read this post: From Internal to External.

But feel free to read this blog for background information.

In October of 2010 Erin was diagnosed with Dissociative Identity Disorder, formerly known as Multiple Personality Disorder. This blog is to record what is going inside Erin's mind. We don't know what all that will entail... But we are hoping that keeping a record of it will help in some manner. We also hope that maybe, just maybe, that we'll heal from whatever issues that we have and come out victorious.

All personalities or identities within Erin are invited to write here; each entry will be marked with who is writing.

If you are a survivor yourself, there are no trigger warnings on the entries... Please be careful as you navigate this blog. If you are a significant other of someone with DID/MPD, our hope is that this blog may be of some use to you, but please remember that every person with DID is very unique and must be considered as their own case.

Thank you for visiting!

Within Erin

With regard to our names, please address us by the name in bold. Any full name will be listed within the individual's description.


Erin -- 1. the name of the body and our collective "family" name. 2. also the name of the Original personality. Original Erin does not know about what happened, and we are keeping it that way for now. She currently resides in Michigan within the World of Alter.


Anguish -- Angel Statue. Female. Age n/a. She gained an actual form and gender in August 2011 when Yomi Kitty was remembering a lot of the original abuse. She lived for a long time behind the first door to the right in the Hallway of the Cleaning Room. MIA.

Blissy -- Human. 38 years old (?). She is a stereotypical, picture-perfect Christian mother with a Charismatic extremist flair. She annoys the crap out of most of the other alters. If you have watched "The United States of Tara," Blissy is most similar to Tara's alter named "Alice." Currently living in the Cleaning Room.

Bloomer -- Cat-boy. 9 years old. One of the Orphans. He is very shy, but once he warms up to you, he is very charming and intelligent. Bloomer is one of the children that used to live in Sierra's House. His best friend is Ellie. Currently living in the White Room.

Chaos & Justice -- form n/a. age n/a. One almost-personality with two aspects like two sides of a coin. They are the persecutor (Chaos. Male) and prosecutor (Justice. Female). They are incredibly strong. Originally thought to be no longer needed, but they reappeared with Naomi, who accidentally created them back in middle or high school. They come and go as they please, for the most part.

The Dark Ones -- A sub-culture of the Figurines. They are made from tree roots instead of different minerals. We only know the name "Elm Root" so far. They are tricksters just like the Figurines, but they have a much darker sense of humor and will cause fear and harm if they find it to be amusing.

Ellie -- Full Name: Little Erin. Human. 6, 8, or 9 years old. Ellie is a young Erin. She is the one that knows about most (if not all) the abuse that happened long ago. Her personal motto is "There's too much happy going on to be sad about the past." Bloomer is her best friend. Currently living in the White Room.

The Figurines -- Fragments that split off from Marie. Each figurine is only about 6in tall and made of various materials. Each one is named for the material it is made from (ex: Gravel, Dirt, Emerald...). Similar to Dryads of Greek Mythology whose spirits can leave their trees, these statuettes can leave in a mobile bodily form. We currently know the names of about 30 of them. Their leader seems to be named "Opal" (which is also the body's birthstone). Currently residing in one of the rooms in the Hallway.

Ginko -- Full Name: Ginko Honey. Human (or sometimes Cat-Mouse Anthro mix). 2-5 years old. One of the Orphans. She was responsible for causing Yomi to not turn in job applications for a few years. She is one of the children that used to live in Sierra's house. MIA.

Grace -- Alternate Name: GuiltHuman. 28 years old. "Guilt" is a nickname. Her real name is Grace, which was given to her by her mother in Alter. She used to be generally beguiling, seductive, and promiscuous, but that has changed as she has started working with Erin's goals. Currently lives in the White Room..

Jihan -- Full name: Jihan Portalis. Anthro Cross-breed (Coyote-Arabian Horse). Morrigan's identical twin. 24 years old. In Alter, Jihan was a professional criminal dealing mostly in black market weapon sales. However, he is trying to change himself into some sort of Supporter for Morrigan. Currently stays in his apartment within the World of Alter.

Marie-Shiloh -- Full name: Jessica Marie Larson and Shiloh. Human and Anthro Feline. 19 and 21 years old. Marie-Shiloh is actually two personalities that share a body within. Marie is "One of the Others from the Darkness" who came after Little Erin and was originally named "Marine." Eventually, Shiloh split from Marine, who was renamed "Marie," and Shiloh hid them both deep inside. They currently reside in the White Room.

Morrigan -- Full name: Morrigan Portalis. Anthro Cross-breed (Coyote-Arabian Horse). Jihan's identical twin. 24years old. She is the Physical/Spiritual Protector, or, as Morrigan likes to say, she is the "Warrior of Erin." Morrigan was training to be a chef when she was in Alter. She is currently functioning as Main with Tommi. Before she lived in Alter, Morrigan was Erin's imaginary friend named "Horsie." Currently stays in the White Room.

Naomi -- Human. 18 years old. Previously named "Sader". She looks like the body did when it was 18. She was the logical half of the Main with Yomi when they were in middle and high school. Then, due to a traumatic emotional event, Naomi fell asleep since she couldn't deal with it. 3 years later, she wakes up when it was finally safe enough for her to come. Currently residing in the White Room.

Nere -- Alternate Name: The Ragged Figure. Human? Age n/a. Androgynous gender. He is from the Darkness. Standing, he's about 7-feet tall and skinny as a rail. Nere seems to be the one that knows about everything that goes on and he helps Yomi and Morrigan sort things out when they need it. MIA

NightFall -- form: Humanoid. age n/a. Female. NightFall is part of the subconscious and was given a direct order from Horsie to make sure our secrets remained secret. This included memories, pain, and fears all associated with the the man at the playground. She was given a new order by Ellie to assist our therapist in our healing. MIA.

Rachel -- Human. 0-1 year old. One of the Orphans. It does not seem like she can talk and not much is known about her yet. She is one of the children that used to live in Sierra's House. Currently MIA.

Sierra -- Full Name: Sierra Lime. Anthro Feline Shapeshifter. 200+ years old. She is a strong, Christian and is generally very loving and caring toward everyone. Originally, she was a shorthair tabby, but she mutated after a laboratory accident. She is currently in the World of Alter doing who knows what.

Stenno -- Human. 15-30 years old. His age fluxuates rather frequently, sometimes right before our eyes. He showed up one day and accused Yomi of not protecting the original Erin and he decided to try to punish her in any way possible. He is capable of giving us headaches and nausea. We believe he may be related to Blissy and Nere. MIA

Thanatos -- Form and age n/a. He was created when Yomi was in high school. He took over when schoolwork and life became too stressful. Now, Thanatos helps out with Yomi's work when she needs extra focus and productivity, which is actually very useful. Possibly reintegrated with Yomi.

Tommi -- Full Name: Tommison. Beagle Anthro. 13 years old. Nicknamed "Tommi," he is very sarcastic and philosophical about almost everything. He is our Emotional Protector. He used to live in Sierra's House. Currently living in the White Room.

Veritas -- form n/a. age n/a. Non-gendered. So far, Naomi is the only one who can hear him. He tells her everything she believes about herself, but mostly he lies. Our counselor says he is what is called the "Destroyer," and that people who have suffered abuse typically have one of these, just not in such a blatant form. Possibly MIA.

Yomi -- Full name: Yomi Kitty. Grey Tabby Cat Anthro. 22 years old. The personality that functioned as part of our Main from 2001-2010. Before being our Main, she was Erin's imaginary cat friend named "Kitty." Currently MIA.

Arrows indicate Splits
Straight lines indicate Name Changes