Read This First

We have moved to a different blog: We Choose Harmony

To see why, read this post: From Internal to External.

But feel free to read this blog for background information.

In October of 2010 Erin was diagnosed with Dissociative Identity Disorder, formerly known as Multiple Personality Disorder. This blog is to record what is going inside Erin's mind. We don't know what all that will entail... But we are hoping that keeping a record of it will help in some manner. We also hope that maybe, just maybe, that we'll heal from whatever issues that we have and come out victorious.

All personalities or identities within Erin are invited to write here; each entry will be marked with who is writing.

If you are a survivor yourself, there are no trigger warnings on the entries... Please be careful as you navigate this blog. If you are a significant other of someone with DID/MPD, our hope is that this blog may be of some use to you, but please remember that every person with DID is very unique and must be considered as their own case.

Thank you for visiting!

Guest Book

Thank you so much for visiting our blog and reading about our life. I know it encourages everyone inside to know that someone out there is reading and hearing us. 

Purpose of our Guestbook:

You can write anything here that you would like, but please be considerate. If you have criticism that you would like to post, you are welcome to do so, please just write it in a positive manner. For example, "I didn't like such and such, but I think you could do this instead..." Of course encouragement and comments about anything relating to this blog is welcome. We love reading people's comments. 


  1. Ok, I will try to write this with a positive spin on it. I have not read your whole blog...way too much information. And your system...seems like a system that would be developed by someone who was in a cult for years and years.
    But that is beside the point. I think it would be a very positive thing for you to try and focus on other people, as well as yourself. Do you have any friends? Are you there for them when they need you? I assume you definitely do not have a significant other. There is no way you have time for that.
    Personally, I think it is selfish to focus entirely on yourself...and believe me I have done this.
    Are you sure this blog is healthy for you? I mean you are immersed in DID 24/7. That is not healthy. I have been there. And I come from cult abuse so I have quite an intricate system and severe torture and trauma.
    but maybe develop a hobby? Or go to a friend in need? Just a suggestion. I just hope you don't get so caught up in your alters that you spend years of your life in therapy and immersed in a world of DID, you are young. Don't drown in this.

    1. You're right, if you go just from the information we've given, it seems that we are completely self-absorbed and we're totally interally focused. However, we have just chosen not to give much information about what goes on outside of the internal world. Mostly because we wanted this blog to be about the exploration and the understanding of how we fit together in our internal world.

      We do have friends and are gaining more; we actually attend a local community college. We have goals of having a career in the art feild. We forget about the blog half the time until something dramatic happens and we need someplace to get our thoughts outside of ourself (or until someone comments). We are currently trying to get involved in the art department at our school as a volunteer, because they badly need someone to organize and the school won't give them money for a student worker. We've had thoughts about working in a summer camp's kitchen as we did this past summer. Yomi's been thinking about picking her flute up again and possibly joining a community orchestra.

      For a while we were unheathily obsessing over this blog; especially when Nickie and our friends left us. But since then we have grown a bit and we try very hard not to become too self-absorbed (it's a little difficult because we do honestly find ourselves fascinating, but we try).

      So, you are right. This blog comes across just as you were saying, but that is because we have chosen not to provide the external details of our life unless it is important to what we are talking about.

      Thank you for reading and for commenting. We always appreciate others' perspectives and thoughts.


  2. I really like this blog, I just recently gained a friend with DID and it is comforting to know its not all bad, personally i find weird things fascinating, and personally i find the relationship beautiful that the alters have with each other, with my friend i am hoping to get to know all of her alters, and maybe pursue a relationship, but i know i would have to like everyone of them in order to fully be accepting, but i know the world is a more beautiful place with things that seem out of the norm

  3. I think you are doing amazing work, writing and allowing parts to participate. I have a DID diagnosis too, so I understand the craziness, and the terror, and the happy times too.
    Great job, keep it up...


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