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We have moved to a different blog: We Choose Harmony

To see why, read this post: From Internal to External.

But feel free to read this blog for background information.

In October of 2010 Erin was diagnosed with Dissociative Identity Disorder, formerly known as Multiple Personality Disorder. This blog is to record what is going inside Erin's mind. We don't know what all that will entail... But we are hoping that keeping a record of it will help in some manner. We also hope that maybe, just maybe, that we'll heal from whatever issues that we have and come out victorious.

All personalities or identities within Erin are invited to write here; each entry will be marked with who is writing.

If you are a survivor yourself, there are no trigger warnings on the entries... Please be careful as you navigate this blog. If you are a significant other of someone with DID/MPD, our hope is that this blog may be of some use to you, but please remember that every person with DID is very unique and must be considered as their own case.

Thank you for visiting!

Tuesday, February 21, 2012

Second Life -- Morrigan

I'm so excited! After having several talks with my pastor over the course of several weeks, I'm finally getting baptized this week.

After a series of significant events and the influence of people like Scott and Laura, and Tim and Jenny, I became a Christian January 5th. Looking back, I can see how good God has been to me my whole life. I can see how He has given me the skills and tools I've needed to become the person I am today, and I love the person who I have become. Since accepting Jesus' offer of equal exchange, I clearly see and know how much help I have been given. I have calm assurance that everything is going to work out for our good as we work towards our goals. I have been given guidance on how to work with others within; when to say what, when to act, when to stay silent. It's rather uncanny and I know that it is not something of myself.

I have seen my own heart change, even within these few weeks. I no longer am hostile toward my brother, Jihan (If you knew how much I hated him, then you would know how much of a miracle that is). I am no longer threatened by Blissy (if you have heard anything about her, then you would know how amazing that is). I have had dialogues with both of them very recently and it's been very good. I am looking forward with great expectations in regards to my relationships with them.

And then there is this bubbling happiness that never leaves me. Even when I'm irritated or completely bummed out by something (like I was today when some guy at art class stole my Pepsi... GAAAAH!!), it is always there under the surface and I am not irritated for long. I'm pretty sure people call it joy, but I love to call it constant bubbling happiness, because that's what it feels like. I feel it where ever I'm going and whatever I'm doing. I wish everyone could have what I have because every person would be better for it.

-- Morrigan Portalis, Warrior of Erin


  1. So excited for you, sweet girl. So excited for the work Jesus is doing in your life.

    I love you so tremendously much.

  2. Congratulations on your baptism. I am so happy for you.


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